As far back as I can remember I have been in search of something. It all started in grade school with the hair thing. I wanted straight hair. I slept with empty cans in my hair(well can’t say I really slept). Hair looked great, the exact straight look I wanted..that is until I walked out the door. By the way, I am still in search of this…
Then in high school it was a coat. Not just “a” coat, a Chesterfield Coat. It took forever to find just the right one. Mom was just about done with me when we finally found it! It was black and white tweed with a black velvet collar. Success! High school was also officially the beginning of my obsession with shoes. It started with a pair of Capezio shoes. I had to have them, everyone did but me. My parents wouldn’t get them for me since the were very expensive. I had to babysit to earn the money and buy them myself. I finally did…Twin button, black leather Capezios. I had a few other pairs after that, but none of them could compare with those very first ones I got with my own hard earned money. I still remember how they smelled and they way they conformed to my feet. I loved those shoes..they were perfect! i don’t think I have ever found a pair that I loved as much as these shoes.
It still remains, the shoe thing, only now I have added a “boot thing” to it. Just recently I was “in search of” the perfect pair of brown boots. Not just brown, mind you, I wanted cognac. You see I already had brown ones. I also had brown cowboy boots. But neither of them were the right shade of brown I was looking for. I searched for months, online and in stores when I was in the malls for work. I finally found them! They were on sale and the last pair, the ones on the display. It was meant to be. The perfect color I had been looking for. I have yet to wear them, but I have the color I need, if I do.
Don’t get me started on purses. I am in constant search of the perfect purse. There are things I want and need in a purse and can never find the exact one I am looking for. I need a certain amount of pockets. I need it to feel a certain way, smell a certain way(I know, I know) and hang a certain way on my arm or shoulder. Somehow I can never find all of these things wrapped up into one bag. I have been in search of a turquoise colored bag since last summer. It had to be the perfect shade of blue and I never found it. I was bound and determined to find it this year and I finally did. it just came yesterday and it is the perfect shade, just what I had been looking for. I can’t wait to start using it.
Clothes…I wore leggings to my recent job. I was constantly bending while merchandising the cases and they seemed to work well for me. We had to wear black for work and so I was in constant search of the perfect black leggings. They were either to short, too long, too saggy, too tight…you get the picture. I was cleaning out my closet last week and counted 15 pairs of leggings..black leggings.
So yes, “Houston, we have a problem”. I am aware of it. I know I have a problem. Clothes, purses, shoes, boots, makeup…Oh yeah, makeup. There “is” one thing I have been in search of my whole life and have yet to find… It is the perfect lipstick. Not just the right color, the right texture and consistency too! I found a few over the years but sadly they were discontinued…of course. So I am still “In search of” the perfect one.
I am not sure what all of this says about me, as a matter of fact, I don’t even want to know..or care. I guess I will always be “in search of” something and that’s ok.